i'm so sorry tt i haf neglected u my dear blog, coz i have a twitter acct now. haha. but today i felt i needed to rant out my frustration. ytd midterm results fell short of my expectations and i was disappointed.. my frens were discussing the answers after gotten back their scripts but i have no mood for tt. since des msg me tt he's in ntu, i decided to use him as an excuse to leave first. haha.. i m angry at myself for panicking, for not writing the correct answers when i know how to do (like crazy rite?) i went for consultation and asked the prof the exact same qn and i still can get it wrong. wtf is wrong wif me.. i have been consistent in my work and this is the result i get in the end. consistency gt wad use u tell me.. today, org chem results was even more disastrous. i tried to hold back my tears during lect and msg ct and wc to distract myself. the gal beside me gt 95, the one behind me gt 99. me? 50. zhun zhun pass. WTF. pathetic results. and when i met ct and zat for lunch, i cried it out and felt so much better. tis is sth i wont do in front of my uni frens. still nt tt close or wad? i duno. seems like i have to act strong in front of them. after tt, went for 214 consultation and realised tt i really dunno alot of concepts. and tt prof kept reminding me tt next sat is the exam alrdy, and i dun haf much time left. and when i asked him a qn, he asked me back another and said "get out of my office" if i cant ans him. tears welled up again and he said he was juz kidding. kns. very fun to make students cry issit! it seems so hard trying to maintain this barely-first-class GPA. if doing-my-best can only get me tis far.. i dunno how m i going to do well for finals. i'm nt ready to see anyting less than B. tt's going to pull down my gpa from heaven to hell. though i m only aiming for 2nd upper at the end of 4 years, oso cant let it drop too much rite. and for goodness sake, i m only in yr 2. i haf 3 more sems to pull my grades down, considering 1 sem is internship which is pass/fail. argh, shit happens when i m suppose to prepare myself for finals. DAMN.