u muz be tinking tt i m crazy to be blogging during my As. sorry to those who expect me to do well. i think i flunk my papers. first was GP paper 1, i did a qn on " to wad extent does migration bring abt a postive effect?" or sth along those line. After writing my essay. i tot i went out of points coz of the word "a" which means 1 rite.. idiotic me tried to change my essay and it turns out to be a mess. next, compre was on history. i struggled alot wif AQ, i keep tinking of points to write..was on the verge of giving up. where's the resilient YQ? GONE. maths paper 1 was difficult. but i tink i did my best. so wasnt upset abt it. wed was bio. after the paper, i realised i missed out many points. essay qn was weird. but i tink i wrote wad i can alr.. feeling nt tt bad. thurs was chem paper. i made careless mistakes in my calculations. hate myself for tt. missed out 1 part of qn. yq, u muz be blind. couldnt get over it. coz chem was my best subj. couldnt slp the whole nite. toss and flip ard on the mattress, running slight fever. time passes DAMN slow..morning maths paper. totally screwed. ppl find it easy, i couldnt do the qns. i noe i m deadmeat. tt afternoon, called mr Azmi. He tried to console me. brought me to Doc. i told him i tot of jumping down, he was super worried. he asked Ms chew to call my dad. every1 was worried abt me. sorry ppl. tl, yl and ct came over to tok to me. thankz gals. kept waking up in the middle of the nite. dad was super upset. sat morning, brought me to my mum's place. tok to me in front of "her". i noe i shld abolish those silly tots. couldnt study these few days. i dunno how m i going to do my upcoming papers.
i m no longer the resilient yq. i have lost my self confidence. but, for the sake of those who care so much for me, i will try to finish my exams. give me strength to carry on.